Entry Date - April 17th 2020,
From this day forward I am making decisions in my best interest no matter how hard it is. I will walk my authentic path, and I will focus more on me and my growth than another person's life.
This will be breaking a cycle/routine/habit, so I know it will take some time and require baby steps. I have to remember everyone else around me is doing what's best for them, and it's not wrong for me to do the same. I have to let go of my fears, insecurities, and worries. Deprogram my negative thoughts. Learn to meet others where they are, not where I want them to be, and not make love conditional but free.
I have to love me completely to show others how to love me.
What is meant for me will stay, it will be.
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I wrote this at the beginning of the pandemic. I had a lot of shadow work to do. I have come a long way, and still have a long way to go. I wanted to share this entry with you, as we are in times where it is easy to lose focus, to be discouraged, and lose sight of who you are, especially when you have long defined yourself by what you do.
This is to remind you that everything starts with you. You are like the rivers that flow, and all of the trees you meet can be quenched by the touches of your waters. But first you must get rid of the toxins, so you don't kill the trees. Continue to grow, continue to do the work. The Journey never stops.